Just What I am

 They found it. I feel like crazy, you know im sayn. I regret the decisions that ive made but at the same time i dont. It creeps me out. Like Ive done a lot of bad in the past and ive told myself that I WILL IMPROVE MYSELF. But it never happened. Im still doing the same things. I think its in my personality or something. I dont even know. I dont know what to do with me. I feel so sick. Sickened about myself. I hate myself. But that is not normal. I guess I aint normal then...
   Sometimes you just gotta let it all out. Like whisper or scream. What suits you best. You just need someone neutral to tell shit. Bad shit and good shit. It really makes you feel better. But I dont have anybody neutral. Everybody are just Positive people and Negative people. I just want to talk about my life, my friends, my behaviour and so on. When you get that off your soul You feel happy but not happy enough. Because nothing can make the past go away. Dissapear. You just have to live with it.

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